"I know you're tired but come, this is the way." - Rumi
Posted on Facebook by "The Nature of Things - Navigating Everyday Life with Grace
(Mesi Hailu, Emma Ami and Sabi Hani)
This inspirational photo and quote was posted by a Facebook friend. The comment I left to this post was: “Made me teary.” The return response to my comment was “Can you share why it made you teary…” Of course, I’m under no obligation to respond, but the opportunity to sit, articulate and expound on the emotions that were stirred is appropriate for me; and I’m thankful for the prompt as it has helped me to find peace and acceptance regarding frustrating experiences.
Two years ago I made the conscious decision to live a life very different than the one I had become accustomed (see blog post “Monica’s Camino Story”). Although I discussed my feelings and decision with my husband (who is supportive), my journey began very “me-centric,” which I believe is appropriate. I needed to separate from my life as it was then and find or rediscover who I wanted to be, apart from what family and society told me I should be or do. These are brave words, but difficult to embody in a world where I already had so many responsibilities and obligations (all of which are self imposed).
For those familiar with Joseph Campbell philosophies (of which I am a HUGE fan), you may recognize this as the beginning process of “finding and following your bliss,” the journey of discovering your true self. For readers that find this sentiment too flighty, this experience is also akin the initial themes described in Stephen R. Covey’s The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People where as individuals we can move from “dependence” to “independence.” The process of Covey’s journey culminates in “interdependence,” or working with others. In Joseph Campbell philosophies this is the “return,” to share your story. I am now at a point that I would like to integrate with groups and programs aligned with my emerging new values and passions.
There are two types of groups/programs I would like to find:
Have you ever had a long aching desire to be a part of something, even if on small scale that was an extension of your own personal expression that could benefit someone else?
In the past month alone, five opportunities have presented themselves that seemed like they may be a right fit for my participation. All have been dead ends. Not dead ends in the sense that they were not suitable for me, but because I could not contact the right person to make an inquiry (emails and phone numbers are wrong, or do not working properly; no return calls or email responses, etc.); I couldn’t get through the door, or even to the right door. They were disappointing experiences for me.
I rationalized these dead ends by telling myself, “It’s just not the right time, group, or program. When it’s right it’ll happen.” But that sounds so complacent and doesn’t provide me much comfort. It’s too much like sitting around and waiting for something to happen. Could this just be that my old dragon named “Impatience” that is surfacing again? Hmm.
I remember a similar time in my life when I was tired of being single, and wanted to find the one special guy to share my life. I had decided I could not meet anyone in New Jersey (yes in the whole state of New Jersey there was no one; smile), so I decided to move to Colorado. Six weeks after making that decision, I met my husband, Emmett, in New Jersey. The rest is history. I found what I was seeking for when I let go of the chase.
I know I have taken a circuitous route to the intention of this blog. The Facebook post “I know you’re tired but come, this is the way” made me teary because it spoke to me. It came at the precise time that my tiredness and frustration peaked with the unsuccessful attempts to get involved. It beckoned me to continue onward. Despite of my weariness in chasing these leads, “the call” to engage and serve still persists…and so will I.
Sometimes we need to just live our lives, continue our journey, and wait for our paths to intersect with the right people and affiliations at the right time.
And yes, there's a musical video clip (smile) Hold On by Alabama Shakes
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